Okay, so maybe I should give a little background on me...I have been overweight my entire life. I was never taught about good nutrition or how to eat right or anything like that.

My parents divorced when I was young and it seemed that I turned to food for comfort. Not using this as an excuse, it's just the way things happened.

Well, now here I am 37 years old with 9 year old twin daughters. And it bothers me because I cannot do things with them like I want to. It really hurts and I know that it really bothers them as well.

My girls have never known a slim mommy....I don't want them to grow up and the only thing they remember is me not being able to do things with me because of my weight...

I have tried before and failed miserably. So I have decided to have this journel, in the hopes that it will help me to keep up with my feelings and deal with things instead of turning to food.

I am starting the 6 week body make over..I ordered it months ago and I had started it at another point, but fell off of it due to my own lack of will power..I know that it works, while I was on it..I lost over 20 lbs...so will be starting that again.

I have to get it in my head that this has to be a way of life, not a quick fix...I have to keep myself motivated and on track.

I know this entry seems to be a lot of jumbled thoughts and basicly it is..Just me getting all my thoughts down and how I will be dealing with things..

If you read this great. thank you.

Bonnie